my number one regret in high school // to my former classmates.

High school had its ups and downs, but it was something I would not change. Everyone had something to learn about, to experience, and to express. My friends, oh my wonderful friends. Senior year was my favorite out of all. My group of closest high school friends; My lunch and library group. You know who you are. I love and miss each and every one of you. Every one of my high school classmates. Even those I was not close with. Even those who hated me. Names from A-Z. Even those that I have went to school with before high school. Even the faculty and staff. Even you that is reading this.

There has always been something on my heart that I was dying to share with you. But fear was in the way. Fear of what you would think of me, of my faith. The most important thing in my life, I didn’t share with you. I am sorry for being selfish for not sharing the most beautiful thing with you.

God.

I wish I talked about God more. I wish I gave you a reason to keep looking forward. I wish I wasn’t afraid. I had such a desire to tell you about Christ, but fear kept me from doing so. I am still growing in my relationship with God, but that makes me want to tell you about Christ even more. Please stay here with me and let me tell you about Hope.

I wanted to tell you how beautiful He is. That He can do amazing things in/with your life. All of His wonders that He has done. To show you Truth. To show you how good He is. Even in the midst of your pain, to show you His Love.

Now I know what you might be thinking.. ‘I am not fit for the ‘Christian life” / ‘He doesn’t love me’ / ‘I am too sinful’ / ‘I live a great life without God’ / ‘I have tried this God thing and it is not for me’ , etc.. Whatever you are thinking, God is bigger and better.

Now, I am not here to force you to believe. This is not me “forcing religion down your throat”. I am not here to brag about how perfect I am, because I am FAR from it. It isn’t religion in the first place. It is about a spiritual relationship with Christ. With the one who made YOU, the stars, the galaxies, the whole universe. HE WANTS A RELATIONSHIP WITH YOU. Yeah, YOU.

Being a Christian doesn’t mean God will calm your storms, it means He will calm you in the midst of your storms. You may sometimes fall into the water but I promise you this: With God in your life, you will NEVER drown.

You are an amazing person. Jesus loves you and NOTHING will change that. No matter how far you have run, He has always been there waiting for you. Open your heart to Him. You don’t need to pay or do anything for Him to love you or to forgive you. Just come as you are. He already paid the price for you. On the cross.

For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him will not perish but will have everlasting life.  ///  John 3:16

I pray for you all the time. God will do many wonders in your life. He will do great miracles. He will be your savior, healer, helper, heavenly Father.. only if you let Him. Let His Holy Spirit flow in you. What ever you search for, find it in Jesus Christ. He can change your life. He changed mine. Once you decide to follow Him, your whole entire life changes!

For many years, I have seen some of you struggle with your life. Struggle with what goes on day to day, even in school. I have heard you seeking for Hope. Seeking for something more than what this world can offer. I apologize and regret for not sharing my faith with you. For not being the light in your dark world. Maybe I have been.. I may never know. I hope that I made a positive impact on your life, may it be big or small. I am not sure if this post did anything for you at all. I just wanted to tell you what is on my heart. May God bless each and every one of you! I love and I miss you.

With Love.

– Aksanna Germanovich //

I just want to let you know that I am here for you.